Sunday, 27 November 2011
Friday, 25 November 2011
its a pinky day today ! god u coudl tell how 'fiery ' the old brain was in the last few.days! all that red and whorling flowers ,(is whorling a word??! poor brain huh ,what a relection on the state of my mind,god !tho i think as it all about depicting the emotion im goin g thru . i think im quite rational u no! lol but i know it is all part of having the tumour and the ,images and emotion that come with it .i feel pink today which means i think im calm and everything feels 'pretty! so its a sweet feeling today altho it was a bad night ,i tried to bake some biccies for tiares school kapahaka concert today ,well the condensed milk ended up going down the plug hole ! 4got where the flour was supoesd to go etc etc! ill get them done today ! i never was a baker tho lol so wht coul i expect lol! i get so agitated aboutt he most simple things ! stressing bout goin out 2 day ,but i need 2 do it for tiare ,. its good to feel pink today
Posted by Kim Murray at Friday, November 25, 2011
Thursday, 24 November 2011
i had a fab day 2 day ! lot more organising and cleaning oh boy was there cleaning ! i got stuck into the garage again ,heaps of sorting and throwing out of things ! talk about delutter!! i got stuk into the conservatory this fternoon ,ive simplified everything!!! cleaned from top to bottom ,boy did it need it after the winter of my messy head!! it was really cleansing in more ways than one !! what a good feeling ,now of couse i want to paint and titivate totally lol but xmas comes 1st so will mak do so till fter the silly silly season and to sell some old to buy new!he he . ive lots if ideas ,the house and garden mags hav been getting a hammering !!!! latest one out yesterday ,full of goodies ! cant wait to do myxmas decorations! good head pace all roun 2da ,im sleeping better from wearing my self out cleaning and organising ! so hers my day ,scuse the poor fiming ,im not so good at inside shots ,i will work on it on tho!!!
Wednesday, 23 November 2011
I have scrubbed the place like u woulnt believe!! i cant wait till i can start to accesorise the laundry ,ive so many ideas .im painting as well ,once im well enough again so cant wait to start! i foun d these cute we curtains and they hav made such a difference. everythin will be white so will start with a clean slate! stilll so muct to do in the next few days b fore the op ,i want things as done as possible !
I felt really good to day after a sleep in so was an easy day today . A fair few nerves tho at times thinking bout the operation ,i get the shivers! ,weird weird feeling ! the big unknown and all that! but i cant stay as i am,i'll just get worse ,so not a heck of a lot of choice huh? living in my bubble world helps! yay for drugs!! gosh that sounds terrible huh ,life savers they are! im on dexamethasone ,wicked side affect but rather be on them than off ! gosh see how i go on!! i center on something and go on and on and on . ANYWAY back to cleaning and fussing ,tomorrw im doing more sorting ,i have alot of 'stuff'' that just needs throwing ,i was, am,such a hoarder ,so ive got to get tough and just chuck it!!!! mind you ive turned into a major neat freak too ,i hope that lasts!! flip this typing is hard!! wish i coud do spell check ,but i dont no how to do t i anymore!!!! im driving nt family and friends nuts i know! poor thing s,they don't know this kim ! im bolshi ,bitchy ,blatently rude at times ,it just comes out of my mouth! ,me who usually watches my words! quite liberating to be honest!! but yeah im shocking a few people thats for sure ,i wonder how much of that i will lose? good thing about his blog i can look back .......and probably cringe !!!!! interesting........gee ive gone all about ME again havn't i !! making up for lost time huh ? and why is the
? mark so hard to find ???????????????????????????????????????????? there that should do it!!!!!!!
well id better log off before 4 hours go by ,here's my morning roses
Posted by Kim Murray at Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Tuesday, 22 November 2011
he ehe there i go ,finger and thumbs!!!!!! heres my mornig pics of my roses ,
well that sme for the day,im tired tonign so hoefull of a good sleep1 ,have shopping to do tomorrow ,which takes a lot out of me ,a bit of sensory overload i think! hope im all fixed up for xmas shopping or there could be a few strange gifts!!!!!!!
only a week 2 day til the op ,it took me a whole day 2 work out how long a week is! my perception of time has gone all awry ,it still seems on one hand a long way off ,and on the other not! .i keep looking at the date and then the day, to get it to sink in! mixed feeling allthe time ,beause im living in a differnt sort of normal ,it shard to work out what is normal. I know who i am ,i have the same though and feeling i think but i do feell so different at times.sigh it s hard to explain too! , i was now ,I no living life very hard ,everything had go sooo difficalt ....frm what was happenign in to me , to what to eat, i had so much clutter in my head and around me ,i coulnt orgainis e things properly, the house was clean,and had soem sense of order but it all felt strange ,little things annoyed me ect this was over a period of 5 mayb 6 weeks ,coudl be more...ive forgotten ....... any way that me in a glimpse ,a lsice of my my crazy at times other world!
so my day ,easy to show u in picures ,and plse exuse the shambles ,luck i can shut the doo to the garage or i tell you it would do my head in if i had to look at it !!!
so see !!! sigh! oh i have done a bit of a tidy since ,but hardly made a .dent!! !
see where im at tommrow huh!!!!! as it seems to take me ages to do Stuff ,like whle hous go passed and ime still pottering with sonelthing small! did my hall table ,well that must hav taken an hour and i only shifted some flowers!