Saturday, 10 December 2011

I'm inspired to the maximum ! ...........

Hello I'm back! hehe I rested and think  slept for a little while then i spent some time(well alot) of time catching up on all the wonderful blogs ! wow I'm so inspired by you all so thankyou for the motivation i cant wait untill I'm up to full speed again to learn  .I do get a wee bit down when I can't do what I want to do in regards to improving my photography ,I can go outsde to the garden and snap away like there is no tomorw but come inside and I lose the plot,! i guess it will improve with time and at least I can now use my right side better and see where something is ,not that I'm blind or anything but my distance is all out and things look out of place ,and all my reading this morning was a first since the operation which means my concentration is nearluy back to full speed ,so I am so grateful for that. well must go now i/ve bored myself hehe ,no seriously i lvoe writing ,it helps me so much , i am so much healthier mentally beacuse of it ,on the road back to me!!have a wonderful Sunday .

A no sleep night ,and a Wonky Tree ....................

I went to bed or should i say went to the sofa! I' m sleeping on my lovely comfy sofa as i find the queen bed too big
!  strange but true ,I get like this after hospital ,

I  did last time too ,the bedroom just seems too big(and it's not) and lonely i guess ,i have the television on all the time too where as normaly i don't . I'm wide awake and really don't think i will sleep at all, gosh i can't wait to come off these meds . Oh and I'm a bit excited too ,I've just watched Kirsties Xmas and she ,bless her , got me all motivated to start decorating the house ,it's only taken a week!  ,plus I  bought a cute wee decoration at the garden centre today, to go along with the my gorgeous St Nick ! I call hi m St Nick rather than Santa as he is just so old fashioned looking  , a round jolly St Nick .
Isn't he  just beautiful ! and I'm having a lot of white /silver this year ,I seem to have become rather obsessed with white since
I  developed the OCD ,yes I have this now, but I've been told its quite normal too ,one of the symptoms from the meds and residual from the tumour and the swelling on my brain . Gosh it was hard to write that ,as I don't really like to talk about it .Mind you , the house has never been so clean and I've discovered (apart from the earlier weeks chaoticness) I'm actually quite organised  or more so (an understatement there, I'm, OVER. THE. TOP . organised!).   Anyway it's about decorating ,this post , I will stay on track I promise ! . I need to straighten out the tree branches and FIX the tree
( oh child of mine),and have a  last look at the decorations ,I threw out all the old and tired ones ,apart from a couple  that I 've kept of the children's , I just can't bear to part with  (as us Mum's do!)  Oh  yes White ,  I have white potted plants ie  petunias and impatients with alyssum , I will show them when all the outside is done . I need to replace my outside lights as they have decided not to work this year .  If I could import some snow, I tell you I would be in heaven !  all you gorgeous English ladies I'm jealous!  A lovely girlfriend if mine is in Enland for a few months and she makes me envious with her  updates of all the tradititions she is partaking in,   she describes every thing so deligthfully though so I forgive her!   Kirsties Home made home  is on again so even more motivation he he ,she is doing some amazing things ,and all quite simple too. oh and gold ,can't remember if silver and gold is okay ? but with the white to break  it should be okay? ,I' ve lain some side by side and it looks okay ,but i really don't care as its what i want ,and anything goes doesnt' it  ,? I dont want too much red  where in the past it would have been everywhere ,red is a bit too  much for me now ,too fiery and bold ,it hurts to look at it too long ,although ST Nick is okay but he's cute. I've just tried to fix the tree and that didn't work ,now I have to find a thin rod or something ,don't you just love children who play with the tree and break it??it !!!!!!!! Well now I've lost the tape ,I shoved a pencil in the tube bit and that broke!,,,well o fcourse it would! honestly the things  I think will work!!  it seemed a good idea at the time and that's all I;m going to say about that! I tell you If you could see me sometimes!!! .  and no its not pity i'm after its laughter ,cos it really is funny when you recognise idiosyncrasies(sp)  about your self it's actually very very telling! I  know what my mother meant about me now ! when i was a child ,you were right mother!   i think  I 'll just buy a new tree!  except i wont cos this is only the second year of this one !!!! I would have had a real one but don't think i could stand the mess.  Well now what? ,Id better find the tape and I'll pop back later with more tales of 'Kimmy and the
Wonky Tree.' to be contd!

Such a good good day ...Yay !

Well after yesterday who would have thought  today would be so lovely .T went down to a family thing for the night so i had most of the day to myself .Mum took me to the garden centre ,which always makes me happy and now i think im set for Xmas to have the garden looking nice . I got a few more potted flowers and some more vege plants . the only thing to go wrong  was mum and I mixed up the plants so she has some of mine and I have some of hers .I should have reminded her that she needs to check me as i cant really count properly and get carried away ,putting things away ,that things do get mixed up ,it looks all normal at the time ,but seriously its chaotic! oh well ,I planted what I had here and will do the rest tomorrow.  Also it was sooo windy that the conservatory door slammed shut and broke a pane of glass in the window next to it!! ,I picked it up and then asked the neightbour to carry it round the back for disposal as I was scared Iwould do one of my famous stumbles and fall on the stuff! ,thank god for wonderful neighbours !    so     yes it has been a good day with yesterdays dark mood gone . i know its g oing to be up and down  for awhile so i'll grab the good times when they occur! and i have this blog to let it all out with the not so good ,it really really helps writing every day ,good for the Brain !!  .I pottered about in the healing room,   this is what I'm calling the rearranged garage as I realised it will be a nice place to sit and do whatever I feel like ie reading ,reflecting, looking for house ideas! lol ,one day i'm going to have my business !no matter what so may as well make good use of the extra room. 

roses and more roses

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given to me by a very special lady(my second mum) 18 years ago ,i thought of her today a lot

wedding gift from my second mum , i sent on the pics to her,to let her know i was thinking or her

So that was my day ,it was a day of remeberence too ,i find i do reminess  a lot now ,its nice and a bonus of my differently wired self !