I hope the joy of Xmas comes back . I have my appointment at Radiology on Wednesday ,that seems like too much effort too .I know I've got to get out of this funk , so I will be telling myself off all day ! t
There are children out there going through far far worse , indulging my misery is so selfish . That's the shame of depression I guess , I know I can get through this ,just have to push myself . I'm still sleeping a lot ,guess it's healing although I was having dreams about M all the time ,I got very upset as one dream was so real ,it was awful waking up ,we were having conversations ,laughing and it was so bittersweet . I miss him all over again ,I cried a lot that day ,the grief was like new .I am expecting him to walk in the door again .
On a lighter note look who came to visist our street on Saturday ! the fabulous Fire Brigade brought Santa to visit . it was lovely watching the chidldren ,although T got shy and ran back inside ,Santa walked over the road to us and gave me the sweets to give to him lol ! Ok ,mission of the day is to LIGHTEN UP !!
|crossing the road with sweets|
|Santa spotting us|