The actual garden by which I mean , I have no photos of on here ???????

pots of flowers

more  of the same !!

by the conservatory

rain on roese

looking towards the tyres of veges

new seeds about 3 weeks old? just starting to take off

I can't believe my self most of the time ,I been going on about my 'brain Garden and showing lots of gorgeous roses but not much esle really lol , Something has been bugging me all day and that was it!  /i rent my unit so its of course not how it would be if it were my own. but it really is coming along now ,i started it abou ta month ago from last year but not a lot done to it .especially when i was going through the junk/glass bottle/little bitty pottery jar phase !!!!! sight to behold belive me..........we now know this was all related to the tumour  ,and my crazy mind!    i was trying to get that whole effect of..........well not sure really  ....a garbage heap? a midden?  a big sandpit ........ some nice glass bottles tho ,pretty blue ones EVERYWHERE !!!!!!!!!! anyway here a few pics taken this morning   ,loved the rain yesterday . So theres a look at the back and yep I ,ve hardly taken any at all of the deck/terrace !  or i.ve frogotten ,i will have to look throug a few more tonight . Now i must head back to the pit  before i have a nana nap ,feeling a wee bit jaded now after the doctors and going to the lobrary ,i cant read read like i used to but nothing will stop me trying ,and i got a couple of xmas deco books and food to heal your life books ! they will be intersesting concdiering my love ot it at the mo .!!!!!!   oh and i wore my mum out again poor thing she is too old for this ,its supposed to be the other way round !!!!!

looking  into conservatory and kitchen

rosy red

The 'Ole' 3.45 am lark!!

Well looky here ! the  birds are almost singing !  in fact I,m sure I hear one or two .... My fault though I skited too much yesterday morning as I had nesrly 6 hours sleep
! huh ! i'ts NOT HAPPENING tonight  .My fault though really as I ran out of one of my meds ,I  had to use one of my own lot of meds in hospital and ran short for the weekend ,oh joy of joys. I've done okay but a bit of withdrawal tonight  ,it's horrible having to rely on artifical crap to get through the day at  times ,but it is part of my life now and  I really can't do much about it ...and I'm really ,really, trying to type good! ,you should see me ,my nose is so close to the keyboard I am just  about typing with it . .........and after 50 or so corrections I have got this far !   I just don't get old brain up there ,I  mean Spell check is there to ...well , ..spell check ?????   I go to use it and sit there looking blankly at words that look like all the European languages rolled into a few Swahili and  mean that with all due respect to all foreign languages .!  So I have to type ,or not, as the case seems to be . Sigh ..... 

Gosh I had a great day yesterday though ,T and I were supposed to start decorating the house for Xmas  , I knew this would be a lot for my little old head to get around cos it means lots of dis-order and a lot of getting things organised in my head in regards to colours and keeping things tidy while dressing 5 ft xmas trees  ! (See how this brain works now !!???)   so I toddled off in my ususal focused yet distracted way, putting it off and ended up in the garage where joy oh joys got, totally motivated by even more mess !    5  hours or so later ...........  I'd made a big dent in the  place!  here's a few pics ,some things I  have changed again and it's nowhere near finished ,now, that could take till after Xmas!
I still have things to go through in my cabinet in lounge that may look good in places out there so yeah, this is going to be one long on going project!

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jewelery  box collection

TV!! ugh ugly thing !

jewelery box collection

looking into laundry area

my crochet

my miss mice

little shoe rack/mag table

Llyod  loom chair

oh look more mess

hung a  (tablecloth up ) it is  cream! bad light! 

a few of my op shops find prints

jewelery boxes and frames

little seating area

Well that  was a lot of nothing really !  I  ,thought I  had taken more ,  SOOOO duh!  just ran off a couple more lol !   Did you see the TV there?  I wasn't going to have one there bit it will be good t for when I put the bed in there for visitors .T and I don't have one in our rooms so I'll get some longer aerial wire today ,tv works quite good just with it hanging  there ,doesn't look so pretty though!

some of my op shop finds prints

 So as you can see there is a long way  to go! ,it will be changed I know 50 x ,it needs  painting and there ' still half a garage with junk piled high ,but its better than it was ,funny as its actually a bit messsy looking to me now whereas before I loved the whole junk shop collectible shop look,I' ve been to lots of little shops and thought I'd want the cluttered look ,but since me lovely tumour ,not so much ,I can tell just by how much I have down sized how I'm leaning towatds less is a bit more ,not totally as I stll love things to tell a story .

jewelery boxes and frames

Well looky here again ,it's morning lol ,I.ve had a great a rather prodauctive time so I'm pleased ,don't know how I'll last the day but that's okay ,I am feeing good enough to function for a couple more hours untill I get to the doctors ,I'm also having a dressing change on my scar so that will be good .I washed a whole lot of my scarves(I adore scarves ) and I'm, going to get a turban or two .  I've tidied up the blog too ,headings and profile all updated so that feels productive . (with lots of correcting but its better to try harder ! I will type again!!!!!!

seating area

more crochet

llyod loom

more prints

prints

looking down the stairs

Hospital days ,

30/11/2011

Operation day today ,had about 1-2 hours sleep,now wide awake ,blimming pills ! . I'm feeling good,just want it over with now ,good to talk to the ladies in here . want to start the day now lol .It's so qiuet ,i thought hospitals are supposed to be noisy!  guess it's becaused we are all brain related ,noise not good ! I can cope woth it okay as long as its not sudden or every 1 talking at onca .I keep losing everything ...that drives me nuts! Have to check 600 x where I put things ,then have to check againg! OCD or what ,writing in this semi light too so its worse than usual . I wonder how I;.. be after - hope not too much loss of stuff ,obvuiusly better will be great .but will accept any improvement .  Driving still cracks me up
1 that's one thing that I have forgotten ,it's like I have never driven before ,was hard explaining  that to people !    Well I'm still wide awake ,so no sleep round here ,lol but i honestly feel I have had 5-6 hours sleep ,oh well not much i can do about it !    

I love my diary thanks Tiare ,you know me so well ,Good ! ,he's coming up tday ,hope it's not too much fro him and the ohers . Worry about the kids all the time .Really hit home how much theymean to me .Just want them all to be well and happy all the time ,they are all such wonderful young people....wow I made tham! he he ,  all credit to them though ,they had to put up with a lot in my back days god how selfish I was then ,children should always come first . Its not about us ,well will write more later ...Kiha kaha  Kim.xxxxxxxxx


Midnight 29 /11 /2011

Well I had the operation ,i feel happy and so so gtatedful ,I was soready to go to theatre today lol ,feel stronger thogh and typing and writing still wonky does that feel a bit clearer ? have moments of writing ok -----or Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot  lol tryiing to be clever ,so good to be abl.e  to update on FB ,i think im suprised to feel I could bit I didn' t know I could do it either lol /  feel so happy .Head is very sore but keep up pain reliefand ut bearable . Have dozed on abd off all eveningso am resting in between   time.Have eaten yay  ! god it was nice to dat! .It was very edible too ll ,I have chocolate too that C brought up ,yummy ! L and mum been here they saw the worst ,hope i dont wear them out just cos i can be a right pain in the bum lol  . Live laugh love ...so chessy bit true ,am so grateful to be here ,mucb love Arohanui ..


Doctors been ,no change is good! back to ward from HDU today ,rehab  discussed ,down dex ....feeling good ,sore head ,though  managable   arohanui .

Yay going to ward 5 again, hopefuly about 4.Been good here but step closer to the big door and home!even better! had a good day ,lovely shower ,put some makeup on,moiturizer ,etc feels good ,see how round my face is !its to be expected tuogh ,I', just vain lol,they reduced the dex. put my photo on FBso people could see how good I am .great to be able to do that and I worked out really quickly how to do that so pleased about that ,I have a bit of trouble retaining stuff-like going back to things but thats okay too .Writing till crap too .oh well ,guess their will be times when it frustates me. Felt a bit sick after lunch but I think I did eat too much ,forgot I had some chocolate too.had a maxalon so feeling better . been a bit of a long day lol ,guess cos i,m not sleeping properly yet ,hopefully that will  improve when the dex goes down .  Can't wait to go to ward ,supposed to hav a CT too ,but that hasn't happened yet .


Feeling down tonight ,tired I guess .Try to expain to explain to peiple how tiring it all is.thay don't get it and I just come out sounding rude .Waiting for people is hard and they are all there talking and it's just white noise .Visiting is all up the wop for me cos I'm best in the morning oh well hard to be awake and quie lol . Writing still crap isn't it? / headache better though this arvo but felt sick after eating again ,had something for the nausea and then craved for lollies (C  cme and Debs and her husband and Z - lovely girl ,have always had a soft spot for her ,and mum and L . all too much really .

0050 1st dec

.Had some dozes again .Noisy in this room ,lady not well and nurses around a lot,she is often a bit confused too,so now I know what is was like when I was noiy the other day, Am looking atsky tower! took some photos quite neat really it's all green and red for Xmas !

02 -11 

Well more dozing and had some codiene ,feel like I,m  getting some rest ,hopeful have scan today sometime and ask about some stuff. uploads some photos ,i think i tagged L. Look quite good ! Its really quiet  you wouldnt think it was a noisy hospital lol ! Sky tower still green at bottom and red at top .

2nd Dec .

Goood day today ,saw physio ,occupational therapy who r oming tomorrow . May go home ? still haven't had scancyet though . Day went somewhere um visitors ,L  ,maia,M ,Maia  didnt want to go bt me but sh was okay . C and D were here .walked outside a lot and didn't get tooo down or up
!  had dex a t imies  so will sleep hoefully yay!  headache better too but writing crap! tonight tho . Had okay times of sleep ,few dreams too I think! headache really good .uploaded some photos ,i keep  getting them alll mixed up ,peole will be getting sick of me .don't thinkthat really mind though ,waiting for scan. bloody hungry! stomach rumbling mcmuffuns sound good  .L going home soon she will be okay ,just take time to adjust ,worry worry worry .though got to worry about me though ,can;t fill myhead in with others worries have to be realistic ,i'm quite hapy doing my things  in my world .

It',a relief   really ,so hard at times with M and maybe my time has come with tumour ,brought it akk out or up? interesting thought really .  well theres my notes to now ,forgot to write last night oh i did do blog . gosh i'm tired after writng all that didn't i do well lol!

I am home ,and nearly all there !!

well here i am ,home .......the experience was
( to say the least) the  most challenging ,difficult ,and may be the best thing i have ever done .I have so many words  to describe it reallly , all very superlative and i still cant get ot in one sentence even !   When i say best experince its more what was involved and yes the wondes of modern   medicine ,a removal  of parietal  meningiomait was a 6cm by 4.5 by ?  ,first time i have looked at those numbers .  It hasnot been instant good affect be and may not be for me time ,if at all ,,as you can see the typing hasnt improved much lol ,!   i have a huge scar,i only saw   it      fr the first time today ,i have put up pics ope     hey dont offend .  i have relifef now from the    headaches     selling ,lots of my symptoms are still here ,one good one gone is the    neglect    of my r arm   i now acknowledge !!!!!as so calm the day of the op too,just could not wait o get into theatres ,i have writtedn a diary of this  which i will transpose on to here over the          weekend i

its another wakeful night here ! part of the not     o good side effects of the drugs !ive had very little  leep for           days,but i just go with it now !   so heres a few pice and       something                   pretty just thought   e gory looking one is on FB ,will work out how to link it tomorrow ,there i am! this is just getting ready to go home ,before i had bandage off ,which i think i said was prettyshocking !    fatty me  omg      the  pills    pile it on     .i missed      my    garden

saturday .    i had one of my garden roses by my bed at all times ,actually mum brougth a couple   to me nice to have a reminder of home.

Believe ............It WILL all be well .....xxxxxxxxxx

Well the day is here ! Operation lift off !!!!!!!111

gee don't  i sound all posiiveand full of the joys lol   ! yes i am feeling good ,love my drugs love my drugs!!!   thort i'd be a bit grumpy  or out of sorts but i'm good ! not muhc sleep bit didnt really expect much ,my mind is too busy !  i hav lists upon  lists   never been so organised!!!     great i just got distracted and 4 got wat i was goin to say it  was all deep and meaningfull too !   any way it s a;ll abit crazy isnt it  ,,goin off to have my head drilled into !!  srtangest feeling ! i'm derading the after affecst im not good coming out of an anastehtic  i go a bit ,or lot loopy ,but as long as its normal loopy !!hehe  not many peolpe do come ot normal lol  .    well i think im a bt hyped to write too much more,wish me luc huh i'll take all i can get!!!!!!  c uon the other side ,i'..leave u with some more of my garden . Sunsihine and happiness .xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxooooooo'

gosh im tired!!!!

had a good day today but i'm a bit had it!!!   spent the day as home tyding  up and half heartedly getting reday for hospital tomorrow . i guess it will all get done ,. im not typing well at all! ,so this will be short .  cnat think bout stuff too mich or it does my head in a bit .  house is all nice and tidy and clean   ,god hope i dont lose all my new found mad house wife skills!    i did a bit more painting ,but ran out of paint ,so that will all have to wait till i get home ,still so much to do in the shed but looking 4 ward to doing it .   if i  didnt stress so much about every1 worrying bout me it would help   ,i hav no patience with some people ,its weird ,i get so irritable where i never used to  oh well ,guess i just get used to the new me and i'll hav the op and lose all my new found  me !!.i actually hope not all of it cos boy hav i seen the light about so many things !!! it actualyl been a really insight ful process ,and i really dont  want a lot of the old Kim back ! i like me a lot now ,its a neat feeling ,that why im writing all this  down so i can look back and remeber the new  Me .     if i dont write 2 morrow its probabll cos i wont hav time .  thans 4 listenting and I''LL BE BACK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! much sunshine and happiness .