paint it white !

had an awsome day painting .its not done great but great for the garage room,i must stop calling it the garage room !  so mich to do still before hospital on monday ,but ill get there! had major second thoughts 2 day ,freaked my mum out i think but al good now  ,this is boun 2 happen .anyway loving my work aroun the place/shed 2 day .  thank  u lovely ladies who hav commented on my page  .i lve tus community ,and to meet talented women such as you is a pleasure.  mist go and do dinner its chiken and chip nite and im starving as per usual!!!!!!!!   michelle ,i wish i could do spell chec hehe but the abilitey has gone it looks like even more doulbl,dutch that now teh words just mix???? lol  ,........i hav a very strange brain !!!!!!!!!! to put it mildly ????!!!!!!

another busy busy day!!!!!!!!!!!

i had a fab day 2 day !  lot more organising  and cleaning oh boy was there cleaning ! i got stuck into the garage again ,heaps of sorting and  throwing out of things ! talk about delutter!!   i got stuk into the conservatory this fternoon ,ive simplified everything!!!   cleaned from top to bottom ,boy did it need it after the winter of my messy head!!  it was really cleansing in more ways than one !!   what a good feeling ,now of couse i want to paint and titivate totally lol  but xmas comes 1st so will mak do  so till fter the silly silly season and to sell some old to buy new!he he  .  ive lots if ideas ,the house and garden mags hav been getting a hammering !!!! latest one out yesterday ,full of goodies !   cant wait to do myxmas decorations!   good head pace all roun 2da ,im sleeping better from wearing my self out cleaning and organising ! so hers my day ,scuse the poor fiming  ,im not so good at inside shots ,i will work on it on tho!!!

so thats my day!!!!!!! feels good too !!!! im in a fab frame of mind 2 nite tired but clm and happy ,. one dayat a timehuh sounds cliched i no but it helps .hav a great day all tomorrow ..............

I'm finding the floor! slowly but surely!!!

I  have scrubbed the place like u woulnt believe!!  i cant wait till i can start to accesorise the laundry ,ive so many ideas  .im painting as well ,once im well enough again so cant wait to start!  i foun d these cute we curtains and they hav made such a difference.  everythin will be white so will start with a clean slate!   stilll so muct to do in the next few days b fore the op ,i want things as done as possible !  

I felt really good to day after a sleep in so was an easy day today .  A fair few nerves tho at times thinking bout the operation ,i get the shivers! ,weird weird feeling ! the big unknown and all that!  but i cant stay as i am,i'll just get worse ,so not a heck of a lot of choice huh?  living in my bubble world helps! yay for drugs!!   gosh that sounds terrible huh ,life savers they are!   im on dexamethasone  ,wicked side affect but rather be on them than off ! gosh see how i go on!! i center on something and go on and on and on . ANYWAY  back to cleaning and fussing ,tomorrw im doing more sorting ,i have alot of 'stuff'' that just needs throwing ,i was, am,such a hoarder ,so ive got to get tough and just chuck it!!!!    mind you ive turned into a major neat freak too ,i hope that lasts!!    flip this typing is hard!! wish i coud do spell check ,but i dont no how to do t i anymore!!!!   im driving nt family and friends nuts i know! poor thing s,they don't know this kim ! im bolshi ,bitchy ,blatently rude at times ,it just comes out of my mouth! ,me who usually watches my words! quite liberating to be honest!!   but yeah im shocking a few people thats for sure  ,i wonder how much of that i will lose? good thing about his blog i can look back  .......and probably cringe !!!!!  interesting........gee ive gone all about ME again havn't i !!  making up for lost time  huh  ? and why is the

? mark so hard to find ???????????????????????????????????????????? there that should do it!!!!!!!

well id better log off before 4 hours go by  ,here's my morning roses 

oops ,sent that too soon!!!

he ehe there i go ,finger and thumbs!!!!!!    heres my mornig pics of my roses ,

well that sme for the day,im tired tonign so hoefull of a good sleep1 ,have shopping to do tomorrow ,which takes a lot out of me ,a bit of sensory overload i think! hope im all fixed up for xmas shopping or there could be a few strange gifts!!!!!!!

me! ,a big mess , and where am i going to put it?

well finaly i will say hello!  i dont like(the foto)   much lol but as im not my best at the mo,and i took soooo many of them ,this will hav to do !!! ugh! i hav piled on the weight cos of the drugs im on (cancer drug),honestly i cant stop eating! it terribl.e !   ive gained over a stone prob more in the last 3 weeks . lovley having an appetite tho again (i think ! lol)    and my eye looks weird ,must ask if its the tumour ,guess it may be , weird how u think u look one way and in realitiy you dont .!  any way that me ,now u hava face to the name ,very brave of me huh ,but hey ,life has changed ,ive changed ,so im goin with it !!    

only a week 2 day til the op ,it took me a whole day 2 work out how long a week is! my perception of time has gone all awry  ,it still seems on one hand a long way off ,and on the other not! .i keep looking at the date and then the day, to get it to sink in!    mixed feeling allthe time ,beause im living in a differnt sort of normal  ,it shard to work out what is normal.  I know who i am ,i have the same though and feeling i think but i do feell so different at times.sigh it s hard to explain too!  , i was now ,I  no living life very hard ,everything had go sooo difficalt ....frm what was happenign in  to me , to what to eat, i had so much clutter in my head and around me ,i coulnt orgainis e things properly, the house was clean,and had soem sense  of order but it all felt strange ,little things annoyed me ect this was over a period of 5 mayb 6 weeks ,coudl be more...ive forgotten .......     any way that me in a glimpse ,a lsice of my my crazy at times other world!

so my day ,easy to show u in picures ,and plse exuse the shambles ,luck i can shut the doo to the garage or i tell you it would do my head in if i had to look at it !!!

so see !!!  sigh!  oh i have done a bit of a tidy since ,but hardly made a .dent!! ! 

                      see where im at tommrow huh!!!!!   as it seems to take me ages to do Stuff ,like whle hous go passed and ime still pottering with sonelthing small!   did my hall table ,well that must hav taken an hour and i only shifted some flowers!

nights

can't sleep 2    nite  ,worried a bout about op ,been able to push it to the back of my mind mostly ,i guess im a bit overtired,slept 4 anhour or so this fternoo ,and wnen i fall asleep i have falling dreams,i guess its the tumour causing the floating sensation ,weirdest feeling ever! like im floating away .scary!  im of sick my wordes all coming out wrong ,makes me giggle at times ,and i shudn!  this is so hard to read it dose my head in! it looks rite in my head !!   i mustconnect up to others like me ,or maybe tat would be too scary !   i will d o a little search soon  ,took some more pics ,in fact i hav e taken lots ,they calm me and make me happy ,didn't no i could find this beauty every where ,my sense r so heighhtend i thik cos of the tumor and poss the medication .oh well ill go with it cos it may not last!!     i got some lovely flowers for my 49th birthday on saturday,in fact i aws quite spoiled ,my lovely friends and family treated me likd a queen 4 most of the day or shud i say when i got too tired ! i have to keep apologising to poeple as i tire and get irritable !! they r getting used to grumpy me!!    well guess uts time to try abd rest me poor brain lol  ,feeling sleepy sort of !!   luck i can still read a little so i will try that. im busy 2 morrow organising my garage im making it into a  display, exta room type thing ,its going to take me a few days.will take pics to show my progress!! nite nite .

so proud of this shot!

my fav shot so fae since takng pics of my roses  ,isnt she beautiful!

Welcome to Kimmy's Garden

my beautiful roses ,giveing me so much joy , i love takin my photos ,i take them just sfter sun rise . I get so much peasure from my garden .i had so many symptoms which i now no were the tumour ,i am medication which helpse the swellng /i hope i donts ound too confusing .  I am having brain surgery for a Left Frontal Parietal craniotomy and resection of mass (supine)  this was a big shock and out of the blue ! totally random really ,just my luck huh.!!! i look forawd to catching up with all your lovey blogs and renewing my memories of all your amazing talents . i have chaged my styl quite a bit ,in the house ,,my brain dose no handel much clutter so i have streamlined a lot !  and im going more to french and stiil my roses! and pinks!  thank u fro allowing me o catchup . have a woedeful  day / ps my typing will be hard 2 read at time but my brain ironically cant unerstand spell check so im very sorry if  its hard 2 read at times .

It's been so long!

It's been so long since I last blogged! only excuse being is I got slack!  and now when I'm ready to catch up ,Ive got to go out!  qiick update......healthwise I'm doing well ,  have had some growth in one tumour in my lungs but one ovary tumour has shrunk! ,I am still pretty much symptom free .Will catch up with all the news later.

Brrr it's cold

It is really cold here today ,I still have my scarf on  and switched on the heater . It's been a quiet week here for me , Not feeling the best so I've been doing a lot of reading curled up on the couch .I took almost all week to do my latest tea cosy ,the wool was hard to work with ,it was a cheaper brand so I won't be doing that again . I had a visit form' Mrs Pickles' ! this week she came bearing flowers as well ,got to love her! I love receiving flowers.  It's Queens Birthday this weekend but we have nothing really planned ,plus the weather is not going to be that great apparently .  Why is it that housework always has to be done? I have so much to do today and I just can't be bothered ,which isn'
t like me as I hate my house looking messy , I guess I'll just slowly work through it today . Well must go and at least attempt the dishes . Have a great weekend!